Flashes of Wonderful by Citrus

From Citrus' myspace blog

I know I have been on the low end of the wave for the last few weeks.

Feeling used up and old....like the water is flowing too fast for me to swim against. It has been some strange dayz for me lately to be sure.


Last night tho...I was blessed....and it really snapped me out of it!




I was really bummed at the start of this session because I had worked really hard on creating some Hindustani classes because I had several requests to do them at Swallow Hill. Nobdody signed up...well one guy did, but the classes fell thru.
I wanted to show beginners the Carnatic system of scale exercises that I learned at Dr. Suma Sudhindra's school in Bangalore back in the early 90s.

I have been teaching that system for the last week or so ANYWAY in ALL of my classes...because it is just so useful and I love to see people who were confused and not free to play open up and understand really big concepts from the start! It isn't a part of the curriculum and I certainly didn't PLAN on teaching this to ALL of my students. IT just WORKS.



So last night I was teaching my guitar logic class and was helping them thru the exercises in different positions and fingerings across the CAGED system. I noticed that the amplifier that the younger student was playing thru had a sticker on it that said "Goddess". I dunno..it was sparkly and caught my eye. I thought for a moment that my two students truly were goddesses and that I was lucky to have them in my life.
One is the student that has RA and has been helping me face that stuff..the other...the young student...she has taken SEVERAL of my group class offerings and tho she struggles to keep up, she works hard and tries hard and when she let's go I hear things that really amaze me come out of her fingers...she usually notices me noticing and then freezes...but hey...that flash of wonderful is really what it is ALL about!

So anyway...just seconds after this flash on the Goddess...we stop playin and the young lady says to me in a very serious tone..

"Goddess Saraswati is surely proud of you!"

This young thing....all blond and blue and emo...not outwardly showing ANY signs of knowing ANYTHING about Hinduism....SHE lays THAT on me!

A blessing...that the Goddess of Music and Knowledge and the Arts is smiling on ME!!??

I instantly felt a wash of cleansing and happiness...of a bit of guilt for my lack of
faith and for judging people.....and of immense vindication...that I am doing what I am supposed to do.
I saw myself as Shiva....teaching Saraswati herself about music.
Suddenly EVERYTHING was perfect! The water was still and refreshing, cleansing and wonderful

of course, that flash is now gone.... but that flash of wonderful is really what it is ALL about!